One night of insomnia attack, I turned on the radio of my cellphone and tuned in to papa jack of love radio manila... He has a caller opening her situation with "alam ko panakip butas lang ako"..
To make every thing a little bit detailed.. her story is about a man whom she admired for a very long time. When the man broke up with his girl friend, the man needed an ear who will listen to his sentiments and so she offered her's. She said that she grabbed the opportunity and the night ends with her getting the title of that man's "girlfriend". Their relationship lasted only for 2 weeks and within their first week, they already had a sexual encounter.
Papa jack called the girl with different names like "malandi", "mAkati" and told her many other things like she should not give "that thing" right away to the man because that is great reason for men to be turned off and not to be serious with a relationship. The popular DJ advised her not give herself right away to men because it makes a man think that she doesnt respect herself and it doesnt hurt much if he will not respect her as well. The caller just accepted every painful letter coming from Papa Jack and some of the listener who even made their way to hurt the girl by texting the DJ.
Finally Papa Jack asked the girl to say whatever she wants to say to the man for the last time.
The girl started to explain her side saying that:
She gave everything for him just to make him think that she is worth keeping for. She can do everything, even giving herself right away to the man she loves without any hesitation, ignoring whatever other people will say because SHE DOESNT WANT TO HAVE REGRETS at the end. SHE DID EVERYTHING SO THAT THERE WILL BE NO WHAT IFS. What ifs that might torment her forever. If she will not give everything, it might be the reason for her to loose the man she dreamed to have. So better give it all and see what happens without regrets ,rather than giving way to any chance of loosing him forever.
It made me think regarding life..... there are things that we dont do without even trying: if i do this people might think that im stupid, i dont want to do this because im shy or hesitating and many other reason.. but because of those too much thinking and less risking, at the end of the day, WHAT IFs start popping out inside us and lead us to regrets... i also had shares of what ifs in the past so at that very moment i felt so happy for the girl. she is wearing a peace of mind, a proud self that most people will never understand.
I often listen to papa jack and usually always agree on him but it is the first time that he admitted he was wrong... at the end of the call he said that someone texted him saying not to let the girl go back to the man anymore ( queue that texters also changed their minds) but papa jack said, he is thinking the opposite. he wants the girl to just go on, give everything, she already risked many things so why not risk her all?
PEOPLE KNOW ME AS A HAPPY GO LUCKY SOUL, A PERSON WHO WILL DO EVERYTHING THAT HE HAS ON HIS MIND, IGNORING MANY THINGS that other people might consider. BUT STILL I CANNOT DO WHAT THE GIRL DID. PEOPLE MIGHT MISJUDGE HER FOR WHAT SHE DID BUT FOR ME I'M SO PROUD OF HER AND MADE ME envious OF HER..
FROM THAT VERY MOMENT, I TOLD MY SELF THAT I WILL NEVER LIVE MY LIFE WITH WHAT IFS AGAIN... ILL DO EVERYTHING WHATEVER IT TAKES FOR ME TO BE PROUD OF MY SELF EVEN IF PEOPLE WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND ME. WHO THE HELL CARES, AT THE END OF THE DAY YOU WILL ONLY BE THE ONE WHO CAN GIVE YOUR SELF TRUE HAPPINESS. HAPPINESS FROM A LIFE WITHOUT WHAT IFS
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